Longing

This season is unlike any other season in my life. I won't go into a lot of detail, but I am yearning for romance like never before. Living life with a longing heart is hard and there have been a lot of days when I just feel like collapsing on the floor out of emotional exhaustion and even hurt. I've been sowing a lot of tears. Which is good news, because... "Those who sow in tears will reap in laughter. Those who go out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them." Psalm 126

But this has forced me to go farther. I have drawn near to the Lord like never before because of this. God has pulled my heart and drawn me in with loving kindness.

"Pull me a little closer, take me a little deeper, I want to know Your heart. Your love is so much sweeter than anything I've tasted. I want to know Your heart....."

"I need a hug on the inside. I need your voice in my mind. I need a touch where fingers can't go. I feel Your breath when I'm still now. I feel Your warmth when You come down. I'll trade the world for what You can do."

This is the cup of suffering and joy mingled together. It is so bittersweet. I know that I am being transformed into the likeness of Jesus Christ. So I press on. <3