I'm working a new job. With a lot of hours. I like it, and I get a lot of work done, and I enjoy it because when I work I feel like I am actually WORKING and not sitting around all day. At my job it's hard to get bored. Which is EXTREMELY good for me. Anyway, so I'm cleaning houses all over Florida. There's a lot of driving involved, but I don't mind it. I also like this job because it's not the same setting every day. I get to work in different surroundings every day, there's new houses. So I like that about it.
Other than that, I am just trying to enjoy my family and relax and rest during these holiday months toward the end of the year, after all the traveling and crazy adventures I have had this year. I want to just enjoy these months before I move out at the end of the year. I am moving to Kansas City, back to the International House of Prayer. I LOVE the midwest, I think it is BEAUTIFUL, and the perfect setting for the next phase of my life. God has put so many desires in my heart and I am actually surprised, because I never would have thought this would be what I wanted a few years ago. But He has done so much work on me and aligned my heart to His, and so my heart's desires are the same as His. So I can't wait to be in the midwest :)
I am still pretty uncertain about my future, but now I have a lot of peace. I have days when it gets overwhelming and I just want to know something. But then I am reminded that I DO know something. I know Who I belong to , and I know He is always with me, and He is my Shepherd. He has never failed me, and He has never been unfaithful to my heart.
Right now I am at a place in life where I just can't wait for someone to know me, to know my heart. I feel like for 5 years I have had so much going on in my heart and my Father has done so much work on me and I have had so much intimacy with just Him. And He has been really, my only outlet for all of the fullness in my heart, with a few exceptions. But now I am so, so ready for an exchangeof 2 hearts that have been feeling the same things for a long time. I'm so ready to know and be known and to share. I'm so ready for connection and intimacy. And it is so hard to wait on that, when I don't know when it will happen.
But I am just going to keep letting my Shepherd lead me. I am going after what He has put in my heart. I am running after Him, and I'm just going to keep my eyes on Him. If I look to Him, and wait on Him, I will not be ashamed. There is so much joy He has in store for me. I KNOW. And I will not be disappointed. I am going to watch with wide eyes, amazed and joyful at His plans for me. I trust my Father completeley.
