When I need joy
When I need to be reminded of God's faithfulness
When I need comfort / peace
When I need to know it's going to be worth it
When I need guidance / counsel / direction
When I need hope
When I need encouragement / something to keep me pressing on
When I want to know about God / His characteristics / what He is like
When I want to be like Jesus / learning about what He is like / the life of Christ
When I want to know what He saved me from
When I need to realize it's not about me
I am going to fill up a notebook with pages of verses - all referencing these specific things - so that I will KNOW THAT I KNOW THAT I KNOW that I have a sharp sword. I want to get the Word in me and deep down in my heart so that it will start to take effect and give light to my eyes and heart and happiness and energy to my spirit. I want to KNOW the word of God. I want to know GOD.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
Dear :)
Hi. So..... I wanted to write you a letter. I just wanted to tell you some stuff.
One I miss you so much. I hate that we have to be apart for a time. But I know that it will be worth it when we are finally together. It's hard to wait and so hard when I think about you since I know I can't see you right now. But I remember that I WILL SEE YOU SOON. It's SO HARD when I know you are the one for me. And I know that we are supposed to be together..and right now we're not. But I won't worry and I won't fret because I KNOW WILL BE. I will see your beloved face. I WILL! I Know.
Two, besides the fact that I miss you SO MUCH.........I think about you ALL THE TIME. I just wish I could see your face you know? And look into your eyes again. I think about the beautiful, romantic times we spent together. All the times you looked at me and I looked at you and then we started dancing. And all the times I went out to lay on the grass with a blanket and you met me there. And everytime we gave so much to each other and we were so happy to be with eachother and then all the times we were just together and didn't even say a word to eachother but we were just content to be hangin in each other's presence. I think about all of our memories. All the places we've gone together. I remember the first time you took me on a road trip to north carolina and there you romanced me in a way few people have known. I think that week we had something extra special and amazing. That was one of my favorite times in all my life. It was the first time I realized...wow I think I'm in love.
And then when you took me to washington DC and we prayed together for America and we cried together and then at the end you pointed to the sky and showed me all those brilliant stars, and then we had the BEST drive home together on that bus with those other people, listening to Light of Your Face, and looking up at the full moon, and knowing that we had partnered together that day. I was full of wonder the whole trip, and you seemed delighted to see that. You delighted in me.
And then when we went to Tennessee together in the mountains and the whole time you kept finding amazing ways to tell me you loved me. Like, romantic, like REALLY ROMANTIC ways..you would take me deep into the mountains and on hikes in the woods and we laughed so hard with all of our friends, and we sang late into the night around those campfires, and then that one day you really wanted to amaze me and you took me on that hike to that waterfall and on the way back IT POURED SOOOOO HARD AND WE JUST HAD THE BEST MOMENT EVER!~!!!!!!!! I know that was one of the best moments of my entire life. W e were hiking through in that downpour, absolutely soaking wet, and laughing and jumping in the puddles and it was just INCREDIBLE to me. I HAD SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!!
And all the little trips in between the years we've known eachother..like that one time we went to North Carolina and that time we went to Alabama, those times on the road are some of the best we've had..listening to our music, singing and worshiping together, and looking at the amazing scenery.........and me being amazed of course, and you just delighting to take me along on this journey and being so happy that I am so happy and WOWOWOWOWOW I CAN'T BELIEVE EVERYTHING WE'VE DONE TOGETHER!!!!
And then..you invited me to Haiti with you. WOW that was amazing. I couldn't believe you wanted ME to go. We had an amazing time. And our relationship was so much stronger after that trip. We loved on people together, we sang songs together, we laughed with the mission teams and walked around, me in awe and full of wonder once again, and you so happy to show me all that you knew would amaze me. YOu couldn't wait to show me everything. And you were so gentle to me on that trip, you dealt with me so kindly and you took care of me and took care of my heart. And when we got home I felt restored because of all the stuff I had gone through in the months leading up to the trip. YOu were so kind to me and so loving. I remember being so happy and amazed that you loved me so much.
And all the different conferences where I went and you just showed up there....all those times were ao awesome most of the times I wasn't even expecting to see you there and YOU WERE THERE....and then I just started to expect you to be there because you LOVE ME..but I remember some times when i really wanted to see you and I didn't because you never came, and then there were some times that you were there but you didn't talk to me. And those were the times that made me so sad..but probably you were waiting for me to talk to you first. But I didn't. Yeah I don't know.......I know you knew I was there and you were probably just waiting for me to come and talk to you first..sometimes I just get shy and I want to hide. But I knew you loved me the whole time, so i don't really know why it made me sad, but it just pains my heart to not be with you especially if you are THERE in the room or the building or whatever.
But I remember so many times just running into you when I TOTALLY did not expect to, like at the store, and you just surprised me, and like at church those times when I was just at the altar crying and then you just came up again and wrapped your arms around me and met me there and loved me........
YOU ARE SO ROMANTIC I HAVE NEVER SEEN A RELATIONSHIP LIKE THIS IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you I can't wait to see all the great adventures we will have together I could not LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!! You are everything to me, you are my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know we won't be seperated forever. We will be together soon don't worry!!!! I can't wait! As soon as i see you again I will RUN to you and jump into your arms!!!
I JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU SO BAD!!!!!!!
Oh and let me know what you want me to do next, I'll do whatever you want I will just plan my schedule around when you want me to and stuff. Just let me know. I hope your heart is free and not troubled or bogged down in any way and I hope you ARE REJOICING about all that is to come!
Tell me when you want me to come see you. I can come for 3 months. Then I could come again. Lauren's wedding is coming up soon and I am her maid of honor so I need to be with her but it's ok if I leave for 3 months if we get alot of planning in these 2 months before I leave (if you want me to come in sept.) and then we can really get down to business and get the whip crackin after I get back before the wedding. But i would rather be with you even more than I want to do this wedding. I know I will still get to do it. But I REALLY WANT TO SEE YOU. So let me know.......I WANT TO COME SO BAD AND SEE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU more than anything in the world! <3
One I miss you so much. I hate that we have to be apart for a time. But I know that it will be worth it when we are finally together. It's hard to wait and so hard when I think about you since I know I can't see you right now. But I remember that I WILL SEE YOU SOON. It's SO HARD when I know you are the one for me. And I know that we are supposed to be together..and right now we're not. But I won't worry and I won't fret because I KNOW WILL BE. I will see your beloved face. I WILL! I Know.
Two, besides the fact that I miss you SO MUCH.........I think about you ALL THE TIME. I just wish I could see your face you know? And look into your eyes again. I think about the beautiful, romantic times we spent together. All the times you looked at me and I looked at you and then we started dancing. And all the times I went out to lay on the grass with a blanket and you met me there. And everytime we gave so much to each other and we were so happy to be with eachother and then all the times we were just together and didn't even say a word to eachother but we were just content to be hangin in each other's presence. I think about all of our memories. All the places we've gone together. I remember the first time you took me on a road trip to north carolina and there you romanced me in a way few people have known. I think that week we had something extra special and amazing. That was one of my favorite times in all my life. It was the first time I realized...wow I think I'm in love.
And then when you took me to washington DC and we prayed together for America and we cried together and then at the end you pointed to the sky and showed me all those brilliant stars, and then we had the BEST drive home together on that bus with those other people, listening to Light of Your Face, and looking up at the full moon, and knowing that we had partnered together that day. I was full of wonder the whole trip, and you seemed delighted to see that. You delighted in me.
And then when we went to Tennessee together in the mountains and the whole time you kept finding amazing ways to tell me you loved me. Like, romantic, like REALLY ROMANTIC ways..you would take me deep into the mountains and on hikes in the woods and we laughed so hard with all of our friends, and we sang late into the night around those campfires, and then that one day you really wanted to amaze me and you took me on that hike to that waterfall and on the way back IT POURED SOOOOO HARD AND WE JUST HAD THE BEST MOMENT EVER!~!!!!!!!! I know that was one of the best moments of my entire life. W e were hiking through in that downpour, absolutely soaking wet, and laughing and jumping in the puddles and it was just INCREDIBLE to me. I HAD SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!!
And all the little trips in between the years we've known eachother..like that one time we went to North Carolina and that time we went to Alabama, those times on the road are some of the best we've had..listening to our music, singing and worshiping together, and looking at the amazing scenery.........and me being amazed of course, and you just delighting to take me along on this journey and being so happy that I am so happy and WOWOWOWOWOW I CAN'T BELIEVE EVERYTHING WE'VE DONE TOGETHER!!!!
And then..you invited me to Haiti with you. WOW that was amazing. I couldn't believe you wanted ME to go. We had an amazing time. And our relationship was so much stronger after that trip. We loved on people together, we sang songs together, we laughed with the mission teams and walked around, me in awe and full of wonder once again, and you so happy to show me all that you knew would amaze me. YOu couldn't wait to show me everything. And you were so gentle to me on that trip, you dealt with me so kindly and you took care of me and took care of my heart. And when we got home I felt restored because of all the stuff I had gone through in the months leading up to the trip. YOu were so kind to me and so loving. I remember being so happy and amazed that you loved me so much.
And all the different conferences where I went and you just showed up there....all those times were ao awesome most of the times I wasn't even expecting to see you there and YOU WERE THERE....and then I just started to expect you to be there because you LOVE ME..but I remember some times when i really wanted to see you and I didn't because you never came, and then there were some times that you were there but you didn't talk to me. And those were the times that made me so sad..but probably you were waiting for me to talk to you first. But I didn't. Yeah I don't know.......I know you knew I was there and you were probably just waiting for me to come and talk to you first..sometimes I just get shy and I want to hide. But I knew you loved me the whole time, so i don't really know why it made me sad, but it just pains my heart to not be with you especially if you are THERE in the room or the building or whatever.
But I remember so many times just running into you when I TOTALLY did not expect to, like at the store, and you just surprised me, and like at church those times when I was just at the altar crying and then you just came up again and wrapped your arms around me and met me there and loved me........
YOU ARE SO ROMANTIC I HAVE NEVER SEEN A RELATIONSHIP LIKE THIS IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you I can't wait to see all the great adventures we will have together I could not LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!! You are everything to me, you are my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know we won't be seperated forever. We will be together soon don't worry!!!! I can't wait! As soon as i see you again I will RUN to you and jump into your arms!!!
I JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU SO BAD!!!!!!!
Oh and let me know what you want me to do next, I'll do whatever you want I will just plan my schedule around when you want me to and stuff. Just let me know. I hope your heart is free and not troubled or bogged down in any way and I hope you ARE REJOICING about all that is to come!
Tell me when you want me to come see you. I can come for 3 months. Then I could come again. Lauren's wedding is coming up soon and I am her maid of honor so I need to be with her but it's ok if I leave for 3 months if we get alot of planning in these 2 months before I leave (if you want me to come in sept.) and then we can really get down to business and get the whip crackin after I get back before the wedding. But i would rather be with you even more than I want to do this wedding. I know I will still get to do it. But I REALLY WANT TO SEE YOU. So let me know.......I WANT TO COME SO BAD AND SEE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU more than anything in the world! <3
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