TRUST-

What does trust look like? It looks like this:

1 Having no money, no car, nothing mapped out before me, yet having a smile on my face, and a steadfastness, joy and peace in my heart, knowing that I'm taken care of.

2 Going to job interview after job interview, filling out application after application, with nothing ever working out, and keeping hope alive inside through it all. Never doubting, never giving way to discouragement.

3 Finding a man whose heart is all I've been looking/praying for, who looks like Jesus, who has the character of the man I want to marry, and who matches everything I've written in my journals about my future husband, but not knowing if anything will ever happen. Having to leave with huge uncertainty in my heart. Having to let go and not know, and accept the reality of never knowing. And being ok with all this. Carrying great joy and peace in my heart, because I know His faithfulness.

4 Saying goodbyes to family who is knit to my heart, when it seems like we've barely even said hello, yet not having even an ounce of worry about where they will be down the road, or where I will be.

5 Curling up in a corner with my Bible when I've been thrust into this blurry fog that is so heavy I can't even see to take another step in front of me. Bringing my bare heart before the Lord and asking Him to take the next step first, and then I can do it.

TRUST LOOKS LIKE:

-Walking forward with a blindfold on, holding my Daddy's hand
-Landing on my bed or on my knees in tears sometimes, knowing that tomorrow the sun will shine and bring me word of His unfailing love and it will all be ok!
-Reading my life story without knowing what's even in the next paragraph, let alone what's on the next page, or in the next chapter, or how many more chapters there are, etc. etc. etc. .....with no ounce of fear or doubt in my heart.
- Falling backwards, knowing without a doubt...Daddy always catches me.