You're Beautiful

At the Call DC, this was the last song of our 12 hour day. After pressing and pushing and working and laboring and almost giving up. It was the sweetest thing. In the night overlooking the capital building, I remember being there in the grass. I had been there in that same spot all day long. I was alone because I drove up with a group from Orlando, but we scattered different ways at the Call. I knew I wanted to be alone. And that's actually not normal for me, even though I am not the most extroverted person, I usually need to have people I love with me and around me. But today it was different. Anyway, the weather had really cooled off when the sun went down. And this melody started playing. It was so beautiful, and happy. "oh, oh oh oh oh..." you have to hear it. But this melody sounded like incense, if a smell can have a sound. It sounded like the very chords from those guitars were rising up into the sky, and the voices together as one, all were blazing up straight to the Father, although they probably didn't need to go far, because He was right there.

Anyway, I was sitting down exhausted when I heard this melody. All the sudden I had to stand up. Throughout the day lots of people surrounded me, little groups here and there, and a few friends and stuff like that. But it was 9:45 ish, and everyone around me had left. I was alone in the grass, standing in this huge area of land. It's almost like God cleared a space so I could dance for Him. And I remember standing there barefoot, drinking in the sounds of this beautiful music, the cool weather and this breeze just came and blew on me. It came out of nowhere because the whole day there was maybe 1 time there was a breeze. And this breeze didn't feel normal, it felt like a refreshing. It was just surrounding me, blowing on my face, and all around me. And then the lyrics to this amazing song.....

We see your face in every sunrise, the colors of the morning are inside your eyes
The world awakens in the light of the day, I look up to the sky and say
You're beautiful

I see your pride in the moonlit night, the planets are in motion and galaxies are bright
We are amazed in the light of the stars, it's all proclaiming who you are
You're beautiful

I see you there hanging on a tree, you bled and then you died and you rose again for me
Now you are sitting on your heavenly throne, soon we will be coming home
You're beautiful

When we arrive at eternitys shore when death is just a memory and tears are no more
We'll enter in as the wedding bells ring, Your bride will come together and we'll sing
You're beautiful

And I started to feel so light, my heart became so strong and steadfast. And I was just awakened to the lightness of the Lord. His burdens are easy and light, and delightful! And I just began to move with the music and dance, and it was just so LIGHT! And as I opened my eyes to look around me, I saw that I wasn't alone anymore. There were brothers all around me. They were spinning and running and dancing and jumping, I even saw two doing piggy back rides! And I began to run through that cool grass with the Lord and feel His delight over us, and the atmosphere throughout that whole place under the open sky just began to lift, the darkness and the wrestling, fighting with evil lifted, and we felt this delight. It suddenly didn't matter if everything looked bleak and dark and hopeless. Because we were dancing with the Victorious One!

And I will tell you, when you take your gaze off the battle, and lift it beyond, to the Captain who knows what He's doing, the Undefeated One, YOU GET THIS LIGHTNESS AND THIS PLEASANT-NESS. AND YOU WIN!

And as it neared the end of our battle, it was about 10:15, and I needed to head back to our meeting spot. I stopped dancing, grabbed my backpack and water off the ground beside me, put on my shoes, and began to walk through these dancing brothers, and people worshiping in abandon, and I looked up at the sky. And what I saw absolutely took my breath away. I saw a million stars, more than Ive ever seen before in my life. Or maybe they were just brighter than I've ever seen before. But I literally felt my jaw drop, and I gasped, and just stood there staring at the sky. They were so bright, so LIGHT and beautiful! And after a while I looked in front of me and saw people I've never met before, just gazing at the Lord, voices raised and completely in abandon. Their eyes were locked with His eyes, and He was there so strongly. And I began to walk through the dirt onto this path right next to the grass, and took a deep breath of the cool air, and this huge smile broke on my face. And I started to laugh. I mean like really laugh. I bet I looked like a complete idiot walking on this path by myself, laughing at nothing. But all around me was God. I heard the voices singing "You're beautiful", and I saw the barefoot people in the grass running and leaping and dancing, and all I could do was laugh. And I normally would cry, but it was just so LIGHT! This breeze was still blowing and the stars were so bright, and everything around me was so pleasant!

So I walked back to my meeting place and I felt the most satisfied sense of completetion I have ever felt in my life. "We did it. We did it! It's over." And the sweetest moment of the entire day came at the TAIL-END, literally the last fifteen minutes. I climbed onto that bus, my stomach was so empty, knowing we were not going to a hotel, no shower, no food, nothing....and I laughed. I looked up out the window and just laughed! And then I looked around that bus at all the sweaty, messy-haired brothers and sisters around me and laughed. And they were all smiling, seriously. If they weren't smiling, they had this peaceful, steadfast gaze on their faces. "We did it." ....And I sat there in that seat and started singing. But I barely got the words out because I was laughing. So I gave up and just laughed and everyone around me started laughing and some crying, and it was incredible. These weathered intercessors were laughing at this PLEASANTNESS. It's so hard to describe ---ahh! AHHHHHH so incredible!