One of those seasons

Sometimes there are those seasons in my life where words just don't ever convey anything that is in my heart.

When every time I try to talk to someone, the words that I want to say just aren't there, so no one ever truly gets what is really stirring inside.

When I want so bad to pick up the phone and just pour out everything to someone, but I know I won't be able to, because I don't even truly know. I just know something is stirring and swelling, and it's almost overwhelming.

When every time I try to sit down and type something, I always end up hitting backspace, over and over again, until finally I just hit close and resolve to have a swelling heart with no outlet but the Lord's heart.

And when you I that, there comes a great exchange between two hearts, and they pour out and into eachother again and again and it seems to never end.

This is one such season for me. Since September my heart has been one big sloppy mess of emotion, excitement and aliveness often causing me to break down in tears anywhere and everywhere, and for whatever reason. Not sadness, just overwhelming-ness. <3

And every day I search for an outlet, but at the end of every day I always reach the same conclusion: there is no outlet but the heart of God.

This is the season to dream. God is doing something amazing, and He is allowing me and others close to me to start stirring on the inside and causing our hearts to long. And now He is placing His hand on these desires He has given, and causing little sparks to spark passion in others, and He is really on the move here.

I have never felt my heart grow so large in such a small amount of time, in my entire walk with the Lord. In 4 months I feel like I have grown four years. What in the world?!

Such a sweet season <3

Still I have not even scratched the surface of what is going on. That's ok. There is something still and quiet and extremely beautiful about only Him knowing everything. <3