The question......

So I am putting a fleece before the Lord now. (Judges 6:36-38)

I'm asking Him for something. If He says yes, HE IS SO FAITHFUL TO ME! Hallellujah!

If He says no, HE IS SO FAITHFUL TO ME! HALLELUJAH!!!!

Whatever He says, He is so good to me. I have learned and still learning to trust Him. That He can do whatever He wants to, and whatever He does is good. Sometimes it's really hard to say that. But it is always true.

My hope is in God. It's in His character and His nature.

My hope is not in what I want to happen. Because the thing I want to happen....it might, and it might not. 50/50. And if my hope is in it, what happens if it doesn't happen? Where does my hope go? If it doesn't happen, I will be disappointed.

---IF--- my hope is in it.

But IF my hope is in the LORD, then whether it does or does not happen, my hope will not waver. Because my hope isn't resting on the results of this thing. It's resting on the FACT that My God is faithful to me, always, every time. He's faithful to my heart. So if I don't get what I'm asking for, it won't shake me. Because I know that He is faithful.

SO.
Here are the two things I may say. I'm going to say one of them. I don't know which one. And I don't know when I will find out which one. But here they are:

"Lord, may I have this?"
....."Yes, you may."
"HALLELJUAH! YOU ARE SO FAITHFUL TO ME! THANK YOU SO MUCH!"
This one will fill me with joy, and stamp that trust on my heart even stronger, and be a testimony of His unfailing goodness to me.

"Lord, may I have this?"
....."No, not this time."
"THANK YOU, LORD. YOU ARE FAITHFUL TO ME. YOU ARE GOOD. I CHOOSE TO TRUST YOU. HALLELUJAH" <3
This one will make me strong in heart, and continue the ongoing trust lesson, and be a testimony of perfect leadership.

Whichever one happens, is GOOD for me. HE IS GOOD. He works all things for good.

I know that He is faithful. I don't know how long it will be, but that's not my job. It's not my job to figure out how long it may take until I know.

My job right now, is to keep asking, keep trusting, and wait on Him. He is not going to fail me. And to keep hope alive. Even if He says no, my hope will stay alive because He's good. ("And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us." Romans 5:5)

AMEN, AMEN, AND AMEN.

"Lord, may I have this?" <3