Patience

{It's my joy to love, it's my joy to obey! You can have all my heart, you can have all my praise. I will give you my life, I will run hard this race, reaching for the prize, I am yours and you are mine....I WILL RUN IN THE PATH OF YOUR COMMANDS, YOU WILL SURELY ENLARGE MY HEART, I WILL MAKE YOUR LAW DAILY MY DELIGHT. LET ME NOT WANDER FROM YOUR WAYS, LET IT BE MY DELIGHT TO OBEY, THERE IS NO GREATER JOY THAN KNOWING YOUR NAME.}

I wept for an hour and a half, in the back of the prayer room facing the wall on my knees to this song last week. All I could do was offer Him my heart. All I was able to do was lavish upon Him all that I am. How I wished there was more that I could pour on Him.

And now here I am, and I thought it would be hard, and I thought it would be a daily cross, and it IS a daily cross, but.....this is so strange......it is light, easy, and full of joy. A paradox, a mystery.

If you resolve to obey Him with determination, and with all your heart, He will pour strength all over you.

It's not even hard to obey Him. It's a joy. Really, I smile when I think about obeying Him and doing what He says. Because it fills me with hope and expectancy. =D

I AM CONTENT.
"I have learned the secret of being content whatever the circumstances....."
Phil 4:12

Right now my heart is perfectly content to be molded in the Potter's gentle, calloused hands and stay in the hidden place of intimacy, realeasing my full potential to His eyes only, being unseen by the world and only seen by Him. This is all okay with me. I love Him.

I will wait, for He who promised is faithful.
I will wait and keep my spirit sweet. He is so good.

Patience.....is a whole lot easier than we think. And it's a whole lot less complicated than we make it.

Just be still, just wait.

It's not as hard as we always thought. In fact, there's something about waiting that is so sweet, light and pleasant that we won't find unless we wait. And it doesn't come AFTER the waiting is over, it is found IN the season of waiting itself! There is so much joy to be found in patiently hoping and trusting.

There is the joy and the reward of finally getting to the other side and receiving the thing we have been waiting for, but there is a whole other joy and reward that we can have WHILE we wait. I have found that joy, and it's so sweet to my soul.

I never thought I would get here.
I am happy waiting. < Woah. DID I REALLY JUST SAY THAT?!
Who would have thought?

I NEVER thought I would be able to honestly say that I am joyful in waiting. NEVER.
But my Lord has strengthened my heart like never before. I can do this.